Difficult Personality

I go through phases. I sometimes have a recurrence of the interest in MBTI personalities phase. It took me several attempts to finally settle on which of the sixteen I fit into. It made me feel rather hopeless. Like I am stuck with this personality, especially rare among women, which means that while I have many ideas, I will find it difficult to finish projects, and will find it difficult to have deep and lasting relationships. 

On the other hand I had the reassurance that I was not alone. Others, only a few perhaps, but nonetheless others have the same struggles and difficulties with themselves as I do. I am not as broken as I feel but have some difficult personality traits which are somewhat uncommon. Also a personality is not just one’s weakness but also one’s strengths.

But knowing you are not the only one struggling is not always enough and it’s often easier to see our failings than our strengths. So I need to remind myself that I don’t believe in an accidental universe. I have a personal purpose which is not just achievable with my personality but might not be achievable without it. The parts of my personality which need taming are tameable and I don’t have to take myself on alone, the Manufacturer has a 24/7 support line open.

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