Procrastination

Procrastination is one of my personal dragons. Yet so often I take up its own weapons and defeat myself with them. 

I know the things that help me waste my time, that prevent me from starting the things I ought to do. Why is there nothing to stop me starting my distraction?

There are various levels of distraction. If I play a game on my phone that is about all I do; while playing videos, I can accomplish tasks not requiring constant vision or brainpower; if I listen to an audiobook or music with lyrics I can accomplish tasks not requiring much creativity; if I play instrumental music I can do many things and in silence I can think deeply, create or pray. 

At times I let distraction be my constant companion which leads to frustration with myself and a vicious cycle. 

Then, at last, I take a stand. I delete all the distracting game apps from my phone and use a screen management one instead. I read more, write more and keep my areas tidier; life is better, I feel happier. Until the next wave shoves me over into avoidance. 

I need to find a better strategy to break this ridiculous cycle. Next time the wave threatens, my strategy will be to take up one of those things that lifts me: an invigorating podcast, an inspiring book, a conversation with an encouraging friend. I will take a break rather than breaking. Break down the wave, instead of letting it break me. Then carry on with a better understanding of myself and armed with better methods to achieve my goals.